i'm 19 , ordinary girl with an outstandingly ordinary life,
living my life to the fullest , taking every chances that ever came through,
trying my best on being positive in everything , doing my best in making everyone around me to smile and laugh , and still struggling to get the best thing in life♥ :)
When i woke up one day , feeling that theres something fishy going on , then i realize my world is going to be upside down and i dont know what to say but to always believe myself that everything happens for a reason . be bold . Allah knows whats best for us !
Soo here i am , being a couch potato for these holiday while waiting to jump into degree life in a few months . inshaaAllah . i really want to find a job seriously but under some circumstances. its kinda hard because no one would send me there. huhu . no kenderaan . plus my room is still a mess . HUGE mess i tell ya , my almari kene kosongkan sebab none of them i pakai , so memang i kene lipat semua balik , urghh annoyedddd gila . fuhh
Its been a few months since ive be updating . actually theres not much to say , ive ended my foundation life , asasi is the best part of me studying . ahhahaha . if i can get through it again i would. but with the same friends and all . i still remember our kuliah gathering . it was litt i tell ya . argh i hope i can share you some pics about it . but its all in my phone im so lazy to transfer sorry .
So basically ive never been on jamuan or dinner that fun and sad and you know the feeling of warmth and love gitu , cehh . the lighting was beautifully shining that night i can still bayangkan lagi . and the food was good and everyone was smilling and having a good time with karoake and all . the best part was during we did our games and acara tukar-tukar hadiah , it was funny , that part when they dance TT korea thing . it was litt . i couldnt believe my friend that was known as quite innocent (i guess) was dancing and most of the guys in my kuliah was screaming because they couldnt believe that it just happen . argh i wish i can upload the vid .
It was our night seriously , and i still remember when each of us have different names like its kinda a secret by not telling that person because we have to buy a present for them . AND I GOT ENYOU . everyone would say like ''Omg thats hard'' why ? because i know and believe he would buy the best gift for the person he got and i was nervous. ENYOU is so nice and i just want the best for him really !!!! it was hard . and yet at that night i was soo scared i dont know why , i CRIEDDDD. I CRIED and i dont know why . He came to me saying the sweetest words and he appreciate the gift and i was soo sad i couldnt really remember what he sad because i was CRYING OMG WHY . but i know what he said was soo sweet , thankyouuu enyou . xoxo. hehe
When we totally got all out , we walked together to college and it was fun , Talking while singing and laughing together , i would never forget those lovely moments spent with aspergillus . I think im gonna post more on foundation next time . SOO much memories <3
During this holiday , i started watching korean drama and it was good , not bad . i love it . now i know why my friends would go crazy on drama , AND NOW IM FEELING IT !! PARK SEO JOON omg he is sooooooooooooooo mine ,
I would suggest all of you to watch Hwarang , she was pretty , kill me heal me , and FIGHT FOR MY WAY , These are all the drama that i am watching . Can't wait for the next episode . omg .
okay see you <3
soo yeah , now working it through semester 2 , one more semester then im totally done with foundation in science . scary. when habis foundation means degree is here , your life is getting near , how my life is going to be, it seems scary just to think about it. anyway , hows your life huh?
when you getting older and wiser , you could see you hard and difficult everything in life is , but just stay positive. My test 2 just around the corner , my biology presentation is getting so close .ive been working as hard as i could to get the pointer needed , ohh ya Allah i really hope my dream to become a doctor came true >,< amiin. So every subject is getting tougher and now realised how much harder you should work on it . and for the before post from my precious , i couldnt believe youre still here (;
soo much words to describe how great and nice you are , and i hope you would achieve your dreams and goals too . To all my school friends , damn , i miss you guys badly. Always teringat saat-saat bersama time spm , everyone was busy that time but it was fun . soo fun that i could wish to go back being with you guys , no more spm please . hahahaa , soo yeah my bro is 17 this year , and i hope he would do his best on spm this year .. May Allah ease. Everything seems soo...
4 months in foundation . ive learned alott , seriuosly . a great experience that i would eventually remember for eternity-i guess-
soo much pressure on how you manage your time and how you perform in all the test . damn i need soo much more exercise , study and blablabla . i cant bear to even tell my parents about my result. i just wish my dream to come true , not just me , hoping-my family too
sem 2 just started and i just have to make a change . that feeling of tak yakin kills me . i kept telling myself ''Semua kejayaan milik Allah , rezeki semua dari Allah , besyukur . semua ni pinjaman''
oh my goodness , too much to handle for so little time , seriously :(
me , nur fadhlin is trying my best on handling everything , putting all the pieces that have been broken back together . suddennly i asked myself , why did this happen to me , i was seriously so sad , fuckin' sad . why am i soo stupid , why do i have to be so nice with everyone , why did i even let this happen to me ? . these asasi sains is surely killing me , exam , test and quizzes surely kills me inside , setakat ni seriously , jadahh apaa aku jawabbb , hanya mampu doakan yang terbaik jee :c inshaaAllah . soo biology and physic is coming soon , prayy for me babes ~
After what ive been through , i never thought that this is gonna be the time where the pain is so severe . betul ke english aku ni . my sleeping order is soo mengarutt . tidur entah bila , bangun awal , im soo blessed sebab tak ngantok dalam kelas , or tido in class , seriously penatlah asasi , wkwkwkwkwkww , why do i even thought of taking foundation in the first place , if i share this to my mama , she would eventually bebel me , and told me , ''your life is already written , your life journey is also been written by HIM , people who you met , people who you are friends with , it is all been written, so dont ever ask that type of question , you may meet different people in your life , learn new things , mama hanya boleh doakan yang kakak tak masuk jalan yang salah je , semuanya up to you tau , be strong '' . mama never fails bagi aku ayat-ayat buat aku rasa macam nak nangis :c people tend to say people with the wises words have been through alott of pain in life than anyone . i know my mama been there . everytime i felt so down or anything , mesti macam pesan pada diri like , ''mama can stay strong , why you kennootttt'' soo blessed Allah grant me a type of heart then can be cure easily , and a very strong one that i could still act like im okay when im not , can be used to pretend that im fine when eventually im not ,,, seriuosly in everything that ive been through i never regret a single thing from it . there is always sometimes where you feel so sad aboutt stuff but still you have a trillion reason to be happy , rather than thinking about that stufff (; ngehngengehhh -happy pills- hehehe , i just cant wait to see how my next chapter in life would be. weeeeeeee.. (my kuliah mates is the most craziest kuliah mates in 18 kuliah , seriuously , soo blessed to be with then , hari-hari gelak , hari-hari buat lawak , aduhhh , kalau weekend je mesti rindu nak jumpaa semuaa nak gelakk . fall inlove with them already)
everything seems so stressful , so much pressure . yes there is fun where you can out anytime , anywhere with your friends and best friends without anyone ever care about you just make sure you have to be in the kolej before 12 am , it is soo confusing , when you have to fight yourself to not have soo much fun . to always force yourself to do your best because this chance only come once in a life time , everything in your life , you are given that one precious chance , and you have to always appreciate every single of it and do the best of it . i feel so lost , seriously . im scared , most probably and indeed im feel so blessed because i got the best roommate ever , best kuliah mates ever , best of everything and yet why am i not thankful for that huhh ? why fafaa .. use the opportunity that you have ,, go , move , wake up . being here , seriously make me more homesick than being in boarding school for 5 frickin years , damn . assignment berlambak , like takdelah berlambak , but always ada and you would always kene kepala otak berlari-lari , serious . physic is one of my fav subject and boom ! sampai sini cam ,, krikk krikk , maybe because of letting my brain rest too much during those 6 months of holiday . yeahhhhhhhh . i just dont want to dissappoint my parents and myself . thats all i want ;c ermm .
Hello (; hiks , Alhamdulillah .. after all these years saya telah pun masuk universiti , yeahhh !! xD apa nak type ni , jeng jeng jeng , soo based on hari pendaftaran tu kan , sebab upm ni besar sangat , tertukar kolej lain lah , salah masuk ladang laah , memang pusing-pusing je keliling upm , abah lak tak henti gelak tengok upm banyak hutan semua , pokok durian banyak sini , hiks . okay , hari pendaftaran ..... semua perempuan pakai baju kurung dohh !! xD aku je pakai blouse , sandals , shawl , bila sampai like semua
orang formal , as for me pakai macam nak pergi shopping mall , mama dah cakap dari awal , suh pakai , aku degil pikir sookay nanty nak angkat barang senang lah semua , hehehe , last-last semua orang pandang hahahahaahaha , after daftar tu an , macam berkenalan lah dengan orang kiri and kanan , diorang semua sbp , then mrsm , aku cam uishhhh bijak semua ni ,, then kene amik injection vaccine for anti tetanus , almaklumlahh awakk , asasi sains pertanian , takutlah terkena pokok beracun ke apaa , hahaha , awal-awal sampai tu srs malu ta pakai baju kurung sebab india girls pun pakai , aku ta habis-habis kutuk diri sendiri jap time tu , hehe , then kita teruskan pulak dengan orientasi yang sampai bila taknak diulang lagi ! sampai pkul 2 pagi orientasi , i wonder whyyy lama sangat , aduhhh , penat gila first and second week ni , dalam orientasi ni ade jugakk lah kelas yang start pukul 8 or sometimes 10 , akan tetapi kawan-kawan , kami perlu kejar bas , i mean , naik bas untuk ke tempat kuliah yang sejauh 6-9 kilometres dari kampus anda tinggal , dan kita mana mampu nak kejar bas , soo bas ada pukul 7.00 pagi . soo konklusinya , bangun awal is still a must lahh andaa-andaa semua , apa lagi yerr , ohh my roommate is shoo pretty , tapi suka tidur , HAHAAHAHAH , asal blik kelas , nampak dia tido , haa gtu , nak buat macam mana kann , ahhahaah , dia baik je , lemah lembut gitu , memang agak berlawanan lah dengan diri ini , soo part yang taleh lupa is when pembahagian kuliah/kelas , so semua sekali ada 19 kuliah , kalau tak silap , ramai gila!! i thought my classmate macam pasif nak mampus gtuu , tapi last2 diorng paling bising kutt , adehh . paparazzi everywhere , srsly diorang suka sangat bergambar or amik gambar orang senyap-senyap . then letak dalam group batch banyak-banyak xD mujur muka aku tidur lam kelas tadokkk ...
first meet , hiks , malam ni lahh first kenal kawan kuliah and terus kena amik gambar hiks
Soo setakat ni kelas berjalan seperti biasa , i have to wake up early in the morning .. tunggu bas semua .. what elseee... haa kiteorang dapat berkenalan dengan dr. hafizah , our mak angkat . she teaches biology , like seriusly , she is so strict and lawak at the same time . pelajaran belajar like usual , susah skit , addmaths , physic , and chemistry bergabung meletup gitu haa , poningg denn .. then part yang paling enjoy and paling boleh hilangkan stress is amali sains pertanian , seriusly , masuk sawah , main lumpur haaa , at first cam lawak and geli la nak masuk , last-last semua dipaksa masuk kalau tak kena campak dalam tu ahhahah , si paparazzi lak mula aktif . amik gmbar tudung bolat nak mati sebab baru lepas berlumpur haa , hhahahhaahah
tolong abaikan pipi itu , tak sempat baiki tudung pun time ni!!! xD
soo setakat ni being here is soo much fun , im soo thankful to be here , i wish i would become a doctor that i want to be , May Allah ease (; goodluck to all ..
forever best classmate .
P.s: i really miss my pandaa , T.T goodluck panda , all my friends are soo jealous of me , because i have you (; hahaha lots of love , me :D
Heyyooo , soo basically in my hometown still tak hujan , for soo long we were like longingg for the rain , like seriusly its getting hotter everyday . kat sini dah dapat nampakk pokok-pokok dah mula kering semua , rumput tak nampak macam rumput . apa lagi nak type eh ? yeah , this month im going to enter IPTA lahhh , a few more days . Alalala berdebar tu adaa , takut pun adaa , sedih pun ada . Result IPTA nak keluar dah awak-awak semua , apa nak jadi ni , im soo scared . Masa-masa macam ini mama pesan suh doa banyak-banyak , kalo tak dapat tempat or uni yang nak , adalah hikmah mana-mana tu okay (; *joget* hahahaha , duduk kat rumah like seriusly lifeless gila awak-awak semua , sangat tak tahu nak buat apa , kemas rumah , buat tu ,buat ini , last-last aku tido ha , selain itu adalah mamat ni sejak dua menjak ni suka lah buat aku berbungaa entah pape , geram aku . HAHAHAHA xD , btw haritu like penat gila , ada je keluar kemana-mana ,i mean start dari uncle yg duk KL tu balik , then cousin yang dari KL tu balik , asyik berjalan je kemana-mana , berkelah lahh kononnya , soo setiap family cam bawak lah makanan or lauk masing-masing an , aku memang leh nampak ahh , mama selalu macam penat , yelah family lain my aunt sume mcm baru pencen sume , soo my mom macam yang paling muda ahh , dahlah mama keje lagi , kesian mama , tapi tak penah lak mama mengeluh ke apa , dia macam , cakap OKAY everytime family ajak kemana-mana , aku penah gak cakap , mama kalau penat kita takyah lah pergi , rehat jelah kat rumah , weekends pulak mesti pegi kelantan jenguk nenek aku kat sana , soo macam selalu bergerak kemana-mana , adik-adik aku yang laki sume macam rimas , tapi diorang macam pergi jelah , mama aku selalu ah pesan , masa dengan keluarga bukan senang nak dapat , time ada tu pergilah . sebab zaman sekarang , mak sedara and anak sedara pun kekadang awkward je masing-masing , lagi-lagi sepupu sama sepupu , mama tanaklah macam tu , haaa .soo haritu , at first pegi berkelah kat pantai an , aku tak habis-habis gelak kat nenek aku , dia macam risau gila anak sepupu aku sorang ni main pasir . dia cakap nanti dia lari masuk air , serius boleh nampak dia risau , dia menjerit-jerit , aduhhh , sepupu aq berapa kali dah macam comfort nenek aku yang takde pape , ayah diaa ada duk main ngan dia , tapi still nenek aku taleh duduk dia , siap cakap dia takde selera makanlah kalau macam ni , aduhh nenekku ini . aku bahagian makan ni memang laju lah , taleh lawan lah weh , sepupu aku pun macam faham dah , lepas aku kenyang baru boleh ajak aku main pasir ke , layang-layang ke , air ke , just kena tunggu aku kenyang , haa , simple . kehkehkeh . petang tu like main air laut gila-gila , adik aku memang berenang terus . then mama aku suh naik kan , sebab dah nak balik , abah aku tengok kami 4 beradik macam basah dia dah geleng-geleng kepala , dahlah ta bawak baju nak tukar ke apa , adik aku laki yang dah basah kuyup siap meniarap atas pasir tu dua-dua naik keta spupu aku , abah tak kasi naik ketaa dia HAHAHA abah ni tu pun berkiraa , aihh. aku ngan adik pompuan aku macam kene duduk kat belakang keta terus ah , kalau bukak bonet keta nampak aku ngan adik aku tencongok kat situ . HAHAAHAHHA , iredhoo . la few days after that , pergi La Hot Spring , bawak sepupu kesayangan aku , dini , pegi sekali , dia macam tak pernah pegi sana , soo dia macam eksaited gila ahh , boleh nampak ah , dia punya kesungguhan tu HAHAHA , tengah hari tu , semua kumpul umah nenek aku , gotong royong masak sama-sama untuk berkelah kat sana petang tu an , haritu aku ngan dini ahhh selalu kena , ''anak dara buat ni , haa petai tu , haa ituu . haa macam ni , haa letak sikit lagi garam , gorengg ikan tu , buat sambal pauh lah , '' macam-macam aku ngan dini kene buat , kitorang macam kene buli ngan makcik-makcik aku , hehe , petang tu memang mandi sungai dengan bersungguh , time kat kolam air panas tu aihh panas gilaa air , tak tipu , dini ngan abg syafiq like seriusly menyelam dalam tu , aduhhh diorang heret-heret aku , aku menjerit satu hutan tu boleh dengar rasanya . Pastu kitorang macam pergi jungle trekking an , masuk dalam hutan sikit jumpa macam sungai gak , lagi dalam , and bentuk dia macam ala-ala kolam tau , dengan susunan batu semua , memang lawa . kami macam mandi-mandi situ , than buat backflipp entah pape , aku try buat , tapi fail , time awal-awal tu aku macam eksaitedd sangat kot aku tak nampak batu yang besar dalam air , aku pergi tonyohh haa jari kaki aku situ ,, darah banyak gila , nampak isi semua , aku macam jerittt SAKITNYAA MAMA OII , xD aku macam bersedih sorang-sorang atas batu sebab nak mandi tapi sakit . last-last aku mandi gak , sebab dalam air sejuk , tak rasa sangat pedih , bila dah keluar dari air , nak pergi kolam air panas balik , aku macam nak nangis , nampak ah darah tu , dahlah darah hutan , nak jalan pun susah zzzzz , sapa suh tak hati-hati . haa before aku mandi pun ,aku makan kenyang-kenyang dulu , HAHAHA , then beberapa hari lepas itu , BBQ lak kat pantai . tak buat pape sangat , aku main air pun tak , aku makan je weh ;3 see ya ,
soo it has been almost 5 months staying completely at home , relaxing as much as i could , sleep as much as i want , watch all types of movies *tak sampai 10 pun* kehkeh , apa lagi eh ? yeahh , did all the housework yang selalunya mak kita buat an , dari form 1 duk asrama , sampai form 5 , baru ada kesempatan sepenuhnya nak buat semuaa tu , seriusly . mama sibuk cakap , kakak kene belajar buat tu , buat ini . cookinggg memang major thing kena buat selalu ngan mama , yelah , kat sekolah aku belaja masak megi , yang up sikit dari megii buat megi goreng yang mee sedaap tu kan , haha . theres soo much to learn and yet aku still macam nak tanak , malassnyooooo . selepas tengok kalendar sume kan , yeah , nanti dah nak masuk universiti akak oi oi , result ipta like seriusly dah nak keluar kan . im soo nervous . soo nervous . very nervous . AAAAAA *sigh* May Allah ease everything . mama cakap mana-mana kau dapat tu semua dah ditetapkan , insyaaAllah , my dream is to continue my studies in UPM , like seriusly . i wanna go there . kehkeh . insyaaAllah . fikir pasal uni ni buat aku macam tak senang duduk , macam mana kalau aku tak perform ? macam mana kalau ituu , kalau ini , aih aih . otak pun dah berkarat . like seriusly berapa lama dah tak belaja . bahaya tul ni . *risau* haritu adalah belek-belek modul fizik sume , like omg , memang kepala otakk tak mampu nak hadam , what is going on . haha . *debor*
Anyway , lupa pasal itu , sejak duk rumah je ni , kawan-kawan sekolah semua duk jauhh gilaa satu-satu , nak ajak keluar pun susah aih , soo aku macam online like always and make great friends with them , seriusly. bersyukur gila diorang adaa , like seriuslya takdelahh aku rasa macam sunyi sangat hidup aku . buat lawak , gelak entah pape , lawak hambar pun gelak , nyanyi pitching kelaut , gossip , buat action macam-macam , dress up together , *joget* banyak lagi kalau nak tulis , seriusly . Having them is soo much fun !
i cant imagine myself without them through this 5 months of holidays . bila lagi nak cuti lama macam ini weh?
nanty dah nak masuk uni dah masing-masing , nanti bila lagi nak lepak online , gelak kat skype . meh nk describe skitt beloved friends aku yang kenal baru beberapa bulan , akan tetapi macam dah kenal bertahun .
scha(nenek)- dia ni seorang yang misteri pada mulanya. haha , tapi bila lama-lama kenal . barulah tahu dia ni sometimes lagi gila dari kau , baikk , suka ajak ko gossip , suka gak bercerita pasal family dia yang beraneka , kehkeh . pastu selalu lah buat lekk dalam semua bende . selalu ada , dan layan je aku gelakk and selalu gelak bersama , everytime skype , aku ngan dia je yang ada suara nak cakap . bising lahh kau ni scha . kehkehkeh . aku panggil dia nenek , sebab kadang-kadang dia macam serius , pastu bila dia thu bende tu ta serius baru dia gelak , kalau buat lawak kadang-kadang dia macam suka lah tanya *eh aku tak paham weh* HAHAHAAHAHAHA , Tapi aku still sayang kau nenek , nak describe apa lagi kau ni ? haa , aku suke sangat time voice note ngan kau . HAHAHAHA , kau pun macam eksaited haaa , xD then aku harap kita sama-samalah move on dengan apa yang telah berlaku weh , pasal mamat tu , zzz , still dia kawan kita , biarlah dia buang kita pun , asal aku ada kau weh , huhu . stay strong babe . HAHAHAHA *kesahh lakk kauuu kann?* thank you skype aku sampai pagi , hehe
afinajmi-i dont know how dapat rapat dengan afi ni , seriusly . mula-mula sebab dia macam baik , suka tegur orang , aku jahat gila ingat afi ni perempuan , maafkan akuu afi ! xD kau baik gilaaaa , macam layan je semua orang , walaupun kau pelik sikit , tpi kau tak pelik pun , kau unik gtu , cehh , kehkehkeh , ko nyanyi youth memangg sedap gilaaaa mujur kau record aritu kan , aku macam selalu lah dengar , HAHAHAHA , kalau kau masuk akademi fantasia kau cakap tau , aku nak undi . hehe . anyway terima kasih weh kenalkan dengan kawan-kawan kau yang semuanyaa pun baik-baik dan sangat sporting gila . hehe
Its time to face the music im no longer youre muse
Soo , assalamualaikum . hehe , suddenly rasa macam nak update harini , ive been overthinking these few days and i dont know why . haha maybe sebab asyik mereput je dekat rumah aihh . Recently ive been reflecting on myself . i mean , fikir balik what have i done to myself . how i am with people around me , how i treat people , how people treat me and on the same side i was thinking how i treat myself as well . people always said that orang yang paling banyak ketawa , banyak gelakk , selalu happy sebenarnya yang paling sensitif . okay lah macam jiwang entah pape plakk , tapi like seriusly . dekat asrama dulu aku selalu menangis actually . cuma my friends je ta perasan . malam-malam pun after lights off aku aku nanges sorang-sorang sampai tertido . aku pun tak faham kenapa aku macam ni . whahaha . dari rumah lagi actually aku tak pernah menangis depan parents aku . kalau nak nangis aku duk diam-diam dalam bilik . done menangis aku keluar then bermain dengan adik-adik aku balik as if nothings ever happen . kalau aku terasa ke apa aku jenis pendam tau ,serius . mungkin dari kecik jadi anak sulung soo tak tunjuk sangat kita punya actual feelings when your parents might be busy layan adik-adik kau yang kecik . when you grow older , it kinda hurts when you cant tell people around you how you really feel . i cried easily bukan sebab aku ni manja ke apa , sebab aku dah lama pendam . last-last aku nangis . aku ingat lagi masa juniors dulu lagi lah banyak aku nanges lepas lights off . whahha . time senior pulak dalam shower berkali-kali . aku nangis sebab aku stress ,, aku nanges kalau kawan aku ada buat aku terasa tapi dia je kawan yang kau adaa . people say when you wake up , you have two choices it either to be happy or sad . thats why i choose to be happy , live my life . my friends once said ''Faa , ingat ta mu penah nasihat akuu , suh aku think positive on everythings yang berlaku dalam hidup ? masa tu aku tak dapat jadi pembimbing rakan sebaya , aku nanges tak henti , kau pesan ayat tu kat aku dan sekarang aku ketua pelajar dah faa (: '' and ''faa thank you sebab ada dengan akuu sampai lewat malam aku nangis , walaupun mu tak penah ada masa aku bahagiaa , tapi mu muncul pulak time aku nanges teruk aritu , kau teman aku sampai aku tido , mekasih faa '' and you guys wont know how much i hope you would be there and do the same thing to me . memang ramai gak cakap ''kau ni sporting ah faa , kau ni lawakk lahh , kau ni ntah pape jee , kau gilaaaa , kau friendly , wehh kau gelakkk kuat gilaaa , wehh bila nak stop gelak? '' hahahahha , sebab aku fikir bila aku gelak aku boleh lupa semua perasaan berkecamuk yang entah pape aku rasa . mama aku pun perasan jugak actually , aritu dia cuba tanya akuu ada apa-apa ke ? aku pi tukar topik lain . i just dont want to talk about it . like seriusly ive never talk about how i really feel to anyone , i admit it , i really love to make people laugh, who doesnt ? hahaha . i was thinking that i have to keep continuing to be positive eventhough you may face some rough things in your life . people come and go ~ people may change from time to time . dan aku jugak tahu bukan aku je melalui benda macam ni , ramai lagi melalui benda yang sama , they kept it for themselves . orang macam ni seriusly takkan pernah cerita to any soul . same goes to me , ive never told the problems that i have to anyone . kawan-kawan aku selalu tengok aku macam sengihh je sokmo , tapi memang pun , kalau aku badmood pun , kejap je , then aku start gelakk , kalo time aku macam orang gilaa tu . malam tu balik prep or anything aku nangis ahhh . its weird ! but its the way i am and i know im not alone getting through things like this ;3
how many nights would it take to count the stars , thats the time it would take to fix my heart
Annyeongggggg .haha betul tak tahu eja tu . So im officially 18 . yayyy . apa bende aku nak update ni . serius tak tahu nak update apaa , idea tu macam susah nak sampai . *fikir* haaaaaa , siyes tak tahu nak cakap apaaa . im not really in the mood of updating this thing . tapi kan i really , really think i should. This year punya birthday is not as fun as 5 years before . when you have friends who woud eventually do stuff to you when youre asleep . throws glitters to you when you were decorating your dorm . tuang habis air dalam botol kau *mula2 mintak nak minum* then siram aku pulak . tak ada dahh hadiah and kad yang cute-cute dari juniors . like seriusly . i really really miss those amazinggggly superb memories . aih aih , soo tahun ni birthdayy takde dah orang buat khianat amik kau punya pensel case and menyebabkan kau kene minta sedekah ngan orang lain nak pen , pensel , pemadam sume , pastu amik botol air aku yang aku memang talehh hidup dalam kelas tanpaa air .*macam ikan lakk* apa lagi ekk ? haaaa , yang dia amik semua bende dalam loker aku , abis deodorant , bedak takde . loker kau bersepahhh , baju sekolah yang ko dah siapkan nak pakai hari ko birthday takde sebab diorang sorokkan , ko nak pinjam ngan orang lain , orang lain sajaa jaaa buat takde , bagi alasan , saja nak buat sengsara T.T mujurlah berus gigi , sabun mandi diorang tak sorokkan , niayaaa weh , . pasal baju sekolah aku, aku sampai nak nanges , lagi 5 minit kene kosongkan asramaa aku takde baju nak pakai , WAHAHAHAHAA , aku berlari every dorm tanyaa sapaa nampak baju akuu , dahlah spek aku time tu diorang pergi tabur ngan bedakk , kalkulator aku macam kena celup tepung , aihh, sayang kawan-kawan saya . aku kelam kabut gila pagi tu , siyes . lepas round asrama cari baju , pegi balik dorm , tengok-tengok baju ada tersangkut kat luar , saja nak niayaa aku pagi-pagi . T.T aku tak sempat nak brekfes aritu , huhu . pastu diorang saja tanak wish , buat-buat ta tahu haritu birthday aku . dalam kelas kene pulauu , aihhh . special day tapi macam tak special lak . kesian aku , huhu . soo birthday tahun ni , still im soo thankful sebab my friends were there , and diorang punya wishes boleh buat aku tergolek pun adaaa , macam2 pesenn , termasuklah yang letak gambar muka aku macam pfftt je . hahahahaha , Thank you soo muchhh for wishing gais , and for the first wisher , si batman ala-ala nak jadi orang jepun , yang baru kenal berapa bulan , HAHAAHAHAH , dia punya wish buat aku macam moveddd skit . sikit jelahh , taley puji banyak-bnyak mamat ni , HAHAAHAHAHA , dia je yang sanggup layan cakap banyak akuuu , pastu skype ngan aku sampai pagi , kesian lak diaa , dengar je apa aku merepekkkk , pokpekpokpek , biannee batman ! - Arigatou haikkkk !!!! . Pastu tak lupa kepadaa buyongg yang kol akuu pastu terus menjeritt nyanyi lagu happy birthday , dahlah aku takde save no. kau , siyes aku terkejutt gilaaa vavii laaa jugak , mamat mne lakk nyanyii ta sodapp niehh . hahaha . 18 april birthday kau kan , aku nak blas nyanyian kau balik , ahhahaha and for the cute and loving wishes from my batchmate aku save satu-satu tauu , thank you soo much (: *kelip-2 mata*
Name: NUR FADHLIN BINTI MOHD FAHMI Known as: kakak , fafa and linnn Age: sweetest 18 State: Terengganu Country: Malaysia Language: Malay and English Religion: Islam Hobby: Sleeping ,eating and eating Ambition: Doctor Quotes: Don't give up until I become a doctor and get you ♥ plus an iphone Contact: Twitter | Facebook | Instagram
I love
♥ food ♥ family ♥ friends ♥ my stuff ♥ my spectacles ♥you , haha
I Hate
✖ sleeping during class ✖ getting mad at people ✖ not being myself ✖ pretending to be happy ✖ being sleepy during studying ✖ liking someone in the end i know he would never like me back ✖ running out of food
About this blog
This blog has been created at the beginning of 2011. But actually I don't really remember when ;) The aim is just for fun.
When i woke up one day , feeling that theres something fishy going on , then i realize my world is going to be upside down and i dont know what to say but to always believe myself that everything happens for a reason . be bold . Allah knows whats best for us !
Soo here i am , being a couch potato for these holiday while waiting to jump into degree life in a few months . inshaaAllah . i really want to find a job seriously but under some circumstances. its kinda hard because no one would send me there. huhu . no kenderaan . plus my room is still a mess . HUGE mess i tell ya , my almari kene kosongkan sebab none of them i pakai , so memang i kene lipat semua balik , urghh annoyedddd gila . fuhh
Its been a few months since ive be updating . actually theres not much to say , ive ended my foundation life , asasi is the best part of me studying . ahhahaha . if i can get through it again i would. but with the same friends and all . i still remember our kuliah gathering . it was litt i tell ya . argh i hope i can share you some pics about it . but its all in my phone im so lazy to transfer sorry .
So basically ive never been on jamuan or dinner that fun and sad and you know the feeling of warmth and love gitu , cehh . the lighting was beautifully shining that night i can still bayangkan lagi . and the food was good and everyone was smilling and having a good time with karoake and all . the best part was during we did our games and acara tukar-tukar hadiah , it was funny , that part when they dance TT korea thing . it was litt . i couldnt believe my friend that was known as quite innocent (i guess) was dancing and most of the guys in my kuliah was screaming because they couldnt believe that it just happen . argh i wish i can upload the vid .
It was our night seriously , and i still remember when each of us have different names like its kinda a secret by not telling that person because we have to buy a present for them . AND I GOT ENYOU . everyone would say like ''Omg thats hard'' why ? because i know and believe he would buy the best gift for the person he got and i was nervous. ENYOU is so nice and i just want the best for him really !!!! it was hard . and yet at that night i was soo scared i dont know why , i CRIEDDDD. I CRIED and i dont know why . He came to me saying the sweetest words and he appreciate the gift and i was soo sad i couldnt really remember what he sad because i was CRYING OMG WHY . but i know what he said was soo sweet , thankyouuu enyou . xoxo. hehe
When we totally got all out , we walked together to college and it was fun , Talking while singing and laughing together , i would never forget those lovely moments spent with aspergillus . I think im gonna post more on foundation next time . SOO much memories <3
During this holiday , i started watching korean drama and it was good , not bad . i love it . now i know why my friends would go crazy on drama , AND NOW IM FEELING IT !! PARK SEO JOON omg he is sooooooooooooooo mine ,
I would suggest all of you to watch Hwarang , she was pretty , kill me heal me , and FIGHT FOR MY WAY , These are all the drama that i am watching . Can't wait for the next episode . omg .
okay see you <3
soo yeah , now working it through semester 2 , one more semester then im totally done with foundation in science . scary. when habis foundation means degree is here , your life is getting near , how my life is going to be, it seems scary just to think about it. anyway , hows your life huh?
when you getting older and wiser , you could see you hard and difficult everything in life is , but just stay positive. My test 2 just around the corner , my biology presentation is getting so close .ive been working as hard as i could to get the pointer needed , ohh ya Allah i really hope my dream to become a doctor came true >,< amiin. So every subject is getting tougher and now realised how much harder you should work on it . and for the before post from my precious , i couldnt believe youre still here (;
soo much words to describe how great and nice you are , and i hope you would achieve your dreams and goals too . To all my school friends , damn , i miss you guys badly. Always teringat saat-saat bersama time spm , everyone was busy that time but it was fun . soo fun that i could wish to go back being with you guys , no more spm please . hahahaa , soo yeah my bro is 17 this year , and i hope he would do his best on spm this year .. May Allah ease. Everything seems soo...
4 months in foundation . ive learned alott , seriuosly . a great experience that i would eventually remember for eternity-i guess-
soo much pressure on how you manage your time and how you perform in all the test . damn i need soo much more exercise , study and blablabla . i cant bear to even tell my parents about my result. i just wish my dream to come true , not just me , hoping-my family too
sem 2 just started and i just have to make a change . that feeling of tak yakin kills me . i kept telling myself ''Semua kejayaan milik Allah , rezeki semua dari Allah , besyukur . semua ni pinjaman''
oh my goodness , too much to handle for so little time , seriously :(
me , nur fadhlin is trying my best on handling everything , putting all the pieces that have been broken back together . suddennly i asked myself , why did this happen to me , i was seriously so sad , fuckin' sad . why am i soo stupid , why do i have to be so nice with everyone , why did i even let this happen to me ? . these asasi sains is surely killing me , exam , test and quizzes surely kills me inside , setakat ni seriously , jadahh apaa aku jawabbb , hanya mampu doakan yang terbaik jee :c inshaaAllah . soo biology and physic is coming soon , prayy for me babes ~
After what ive been through , i never thought that this is gonna be the time where the pain is so severe . betul ke english aku ni . my sleeping order is soo mengarutt . tidur entah bila , bangun awal , im soo blessed sebab tak ngantok dalam kelas , or tido in class , seriously penatlah asasi , wkwkwkwkwkww , why do i even thought of taking foundation in the first place , if i share this to my mama , she would eventually bebel me , and told me , ''your life is already written , your life journey is also been written by HIM , people who you met , people who you are friends with , it is all been written, so dont ever ask that type of question , you may meet different people in your life , learn new things , mama hanya boleh doakan yang kakak tak masuk jalan yang salah je , semuanya up to you tau , be strong '' . mama never fails bagi aku ayat-ayat buat aku rasa macam nak nangis :c people tend to say people with the wises words have been through alott of pain in life than anyone . i know my mama been there . everytime i felt so down or anything , mesti macam pesan pada diri like , ''mama can stay strong , why you kennootttt'' soo blessed Allah grant me a type of heart then can be cure easily , and a very strong one that i could still act like im okay when im not , can be used to pretend that im fine when eventually im not ,,, seriuosly in everything that ive been through i never regret a single thing from it . there is always sometimes where you feel so sad aboutt stuff but still you have a trillion reason to be happy , rather than thinking about that stufff (; ngehngengehhh -happy pills- hehehe , i just cant wait to see how my next chapter in life would be. weeeeeeee.. (my kuliah mates is the most craziest kuliah mates in 18 kuliah , seriuously , soo blessed to be with then , hari-hari gelak , hari-hari buat lawak , aduhhh , kalau weekend je mesti rindu nak jumpaa semuaa nak gelakk . fall inlove with them already)
everything seems so stressful , so much pressure . yes there is fun where you can out anytime , anywhere with your friends and best friends without anyone ever care about you just make sure you have to be in the kolej before 12 am , it is soo confusing , when you have to fight yourself to not have soo much fun . to always force yourself to do your best because this chance only come once in a life time , everything in your life , you are given that one precious chance , and you have to always appreciate every single of it and do the best of it . i feel so lost , seriously . im scared , most probably and indeed im feel so blessed because i got the best roommate ever , best kuliah mates ever , best of everything and yet why am i not thankful for that huhh ? why fafaa .. use the opportunity that you have ,, go , move , wake up . being here , seriously make me more homesick than being in boarding school for 5 frickin years , damn . assignment berlambak , like takdelah berlambak , but always ada and you would always kene kepala otak berlari-lari , serious . physic is one of my fav subject and boom ! sampai sini cam ,, krikk krikk , maybe because of letting my brain rest too much during those 6 months of holiday . yeahhhhhhhh . i just dont want to dissappoint my parents and myself . thats all i want ;c ermm .
Hello (; hiks , Alhamdulillah .. after all these years saya telah pun masuk universiti , yeahhh !! xD apa nak type ni , jeng jeng jeng , soo based on hari pendaftaran tu kan , sebab upm ni besar sangat , tertukar kolej lain lah , salah masuk ladang laah , memang pusing-pusing je keliling upm , abah lak tak henti gelak tengok upm banyak hutan semua , pokok durian banyak sini , hiks . okay , hari pendaftaran ..... semua perempuan pakai baju kurung dohh !! xD aku je pakai blouse , sandals , shawl , bila sampai like semua
orang formal , as for me pakai macam nak pergi shopping mall , mama dah cakap dari awal , suh pakai , aku degil pikir sookay nanty nak angkat barang senang lah semua , hehehe , last-last semua orang pandang hahahahaahaha , after daftar tu an , macam berkenalan lah dengan orang kiri and kanan , diorang semua sbp , then mrsm , aku cam uishhhh bijak semua ni ,, then kene amik injection vaccine for anti tetanus , almaklumlahh awakk , asasi sains pertanian , takutlah terkena pokok beracun ke apaa , hahaha , awal-awal sampai tu srs malu ta pakai baju kurung sebab india girls pun pakai , aku ta habis-habis kutuk diri sendiri jap time tu , hehe , then kita teruskan pulak dengan orientasi yang sampai bila taknak diulang lagi ! sampai pkul 2 pagi orientasi , i wonder whyyy lama sangat , aduhhh , penat gila first and second week ni , dalam orientasi ni ade jugakk lah kelas yang start pukul 8 or sometimes 10 , akan tetapi kawan-kawan , kami perlu kejar bas , i mean , naik bas untuk ke tempat kuliah yang sejauh 6-9 kilometres dari kampus anda tinggal , dan kita mana mampu nak kejar bas , soo bas ada pukul 7.00 pagi . soo konklusinya , bangun awal is still a must lahh andaa-andaa semua , apa lagi yerr , ohh my roommate is shoo pretty , tapi suka tidur , HAHAAHAHAH , asal blik kelas , nampak dia tido , haa gtu , nak buat macam mana kann , ahhahaah , dia baik je , lemah lembut gitu , memang agak berlawanan lah dengan diri ini , soo part yang taleh lupa is when pembahagian kuliah/kelas , so semua sekali ada 19 kuliah , kalau tak silap , ramai gila!! i thought my classmate macam pasif nak mampus gtuu , tapi last2 diorng paling bising kutt , adehh . paparazzi everywhere , srsly diorang suka sangat bergambar or amik gambar orang senyap-senyap . then letak dalam group batch banyak-banyak xD mujur muka aku tidur lam kelas tadokkk ...
first meet , hiks , malam ni lahh first kenal kawan kuliah and terus kena amik gambar hiks
Soo setakat ni kelas berjalan seperti biasa , i have to wake up early in the morning .. tunggu bas semua .. what elseee... haa kiteorang dapat berkenalan dengan dr. hafizah , our mak angkat . she teaches biology , like seriusly , she is so strict and lawak at the same time . pelajaran belajar like usual , susah skit , addmaths , physic , and chemistry bergabung meletup gitu haa , poningg denn .. then part yang paling enjoy and paling boleh hilangkan stress is amali sains pertanian , seriusly , masuk sawah , main lumpur haaa , at first cam lawak and geli la nak masuk , last-last semua dipaksa masuk kalau tak kena campak dalam tu ahhahah , si paparazzi lak mula aktif . amik gmbar tudung bolat nak mati sebab baru lepas berlumpur haa , hhahahhaahah
tolong abaikan pipi itu , tak sempat baiki tudung pun time ni!!! xD
soo setakat ni being here is soo much fun , im soo thankful to be here , i wish i would become a doctor that i want to be , May Allah ease (; goodluck to all ..
forever best classmate .
P.s: i really miss my pandaa , T.T goodluck panda , all my friends are soo jealous of me , because i have you (; hahaha lots of love , me :D
Heyyooo , soo basically in my hometown still tak hujan , for soo long we were like longingg for the rain , like seriusly its getting hotter everyday . kat sini dah dapat nampakk pokok-pokok dah mula kering semua , rumput tak nampak macam rumput . apa lagi nak type eh ? yeah , this month im going to enter IPTA lahhh , a few more days . Alalala berdebar tu adaa , takut pun adaa , sedih pun ada . Result IPTA nak keluar dah awak-awak semua , apa nak jadi ni , im soo scared . Masa-masa macam ini mama pesan suh doa banyak-banyak , kalo tak dapat tempat or uni yang nak , adalah hikmah mana-mana tu okay (; *joget* hahahaha , duduk kat rumah like seriusly lifeless gila awak-awak semua , sangat tak tahu nak buat apa , kemas rumah , buat tu ,buat ini , last-last aku tido ha , selain itu adalah mamat ni sejak dua menjak ni suka lah buat aku berbungaa entah pape , geram aku . HAHAHAHA xD , btw haritu like penat gila , ada je keluar kemana-mana ,i mean start dari uncle yg duk KL tu balik , then cousin yang dari KL tu balik , asyik berjalan je kemana-mana , berkelah lahh kononnya , soo setiap family cam bawak lah makanan or lauk masing-masing an , aku memang leh nampak ahh , mama selalu macam penat , yelah family lain my aunt sume mcm baru pencen sume , soo my mom macam yang paling muda ahh , dahlah mama keje lagi , kesian mama , tapi tak penah lak mama mengeluh ke apa , dia macam , cakap OKAY everytime family ajak kemana-mana , aku penah gak cakap , mama kalau penat kita takyah lah pergi , rehat jelah kat rumah , weekends pulak mesti pegi kelantan jenguk nenek aku kat sana , soo macam selalu bergerak kemana-mana , adik-adik aku yang laki sume macam rimas , tapi diorang macam pergi jelah , mama aku selalu ah pesan , masa dengan keluarga bukan senang nak dapat , time ada tu pergilah . sebab zaman sekarang , mak sedara and anak sedara pun kekadang awkward je masing-masing , lagi-lagi sepupu sama sepupu , mama tanaklah macam tu , haaa .soo haritu , at first pegi berkelah kat pantai an , aku tak habis-habis gelak kat nenek aku , dia macam risau gila anak sepupu aku sorang ni main pasir . dia cakap nanti dia lari masuk air , serius boleh nampak dia risau , dia menjerit-jerit , aduhhh , sepupu aq berapa kali dah macam comfort nenek aku yang takde pape , ayah diaa ada duk main ngan dia , tapi still nenek aku taleh duduk dia , siap cakap dia takde selera makanlah kalau macam ni , aduhh nenekku ini . aku bahagian makan ni memang laju lah , taleh lawan lah weh , sepupu aku pun macam faham dah , lepas aku kenyang baru boleh ajak aku main pasir ke , layang-layang ke , air ke , just kena tunggu aku kenyang , haa , simple . kehkehkeh . petang tu like main air laut gila-gila , adik aku memang berenang terus . then mama aku suh naik kan , sebab dah nak balik , abah aku tengok kami 4 beradik macam basah dia dah geleng-geleng kepala , dahlah ta bawak baju nak tukar ke apa , adik aku laki yang dah basah kuyup siap meniarap atas pasir tu dua-dua naik keta spupu aku , abah tak kasi naik ketaa dia HAHAHA abah ni tu pun berkiraa , aihh. aku ngan adik pompuan aku macam kene duduk kat belakang keta terus ah , kalau bukak bonet keta nampak aku ngan adik aku tencongok kat situ . HAHAAHAHHA , iredhoo . la few days after that , pergi La Hot Spring , bawak sepupu kesayangan aku , dini , pegi sekali , dia macam tak pernah pegi sana , soo dia macam eksaited gila ahh , boleh nampak ah , dia punya kesungguhan tu HAHAHA , tengah hari tu , semua kumpul umah nenek aku , gotong royong masak sama-sama untuk berkelah kat sana petang tu an , haritu aku ngan dini ahhh selalu kena , ''anak dara buat ni , haa petai tu , haa ituu . haa macam ni , haa letak sikit lagi garam , gorengg ikan tu , buat sambal pauh lah , '' macam-macam aku ngan dini kene buat , kitorang macam kene buli ngan makcik-makcik aku , hehe , petang tu memang mandi sungai dengan bersungguh , time kat kolam air panas tu aihh panas gilaa air , tak tipu , dini ngan abg syafiq like seriusly menyelam dalam tu , aduhhh diorang heret-heret aku , aku menjerit satu hutan tu boleh dengar rasanya . Pastu kitorang macam pergi jungle trekking an , masuk dalam hutan sikit jumpa macam sungai gak , lagi dalam , and bentuk dia macam ala-ala kolam tau , dengan susunan batu semua , memang lawa . kami macam mandi-mandi situ , than buat backflipp entah pape , aku try buat , tapi fail , time awal-awal tu aku macam eksaitedd sangat kot aku tak nampak batu yang besar dalam air , aku pergi tonyohh haa jari kaki aku situ ,, darah banyak gila , nampak isi semua , aku macam jerittt SAKITNYAA MAMA OII , xD aku macam bersedih sorang-sorang atas batu sebab nak mandi tapi sakit . last-last aku mandi gak , sebab dalam air sejuk , tak rasa sangat pedih , bila dah keluar dari air , nak pergi kolam air panas balik , aku macam nak nangis , nampak ah darah tu , dahlah darah hutan , nak jalan pun susah zzzzz , sapa suh tak hati-hati . haa before aku mandi pun ,aku makan kenyang-kenyang dulu , HAHAHA , then beberapa hari lepas itu , BBQ lak kat pantai . tak buat pape sangat , aku main air pun tak , aku makan je weh ;3 see ya ,
soo it has been almost 5 months staying completely at home , relaxing as much as i could , sleep as much as i want , watch all types of movies *tak sampai 10 pun* kehkeh , apa lagi eh ? yeahh , did all the housework yang selalunya mak kita buat an , dari form 1 duk asrama , sampai form 5 , baru ada kesempatan sepenuhnya nak buat semuaa tu , seriusly . mama sibuk cakap , kakak kene belajar buat tu , buat ini . cookinggg memang major thing kena buat selalu ngan mama , yelah , kat sekolah aku belaja masak megi , yang up sikit dari megii buat megi goreng yang mee sedaap tu kan , haha . theres soo much to learn and yet aku still macam nak tanak , malassnyooooo . selepas tengok kalendar sume kan , yeah , nanti dah nak masuk universiti akak oi oi , result ipta like seriusly dah nak keluar kan . im soo nervous . soo nervous . very nervous . AAAAAA *sigh* May Allah ease everything . mama cakap mana-mana kau dapat tu semua dah ditetapkan , insyaaAllah , my dream is to continue my studies in UPM , like seriusly . i wanna go there . kehkeh . insyaaAllah . fikir pasal uni ni buat aku macam tak senang duduk , macam mana kalau aku tak perform ? macam mana kalau ituu , kalau ini , aih aih . otak pun dah berkarat . like seriusly berapa lama dah tak belaja . bahaya tul ni . *risau* haritu adalah belek-belek modul fizik sume , like omg , memang kepala otakk tak mampu nak hadam , what is going on . haha . *debor*
Anyway , lupa pasal itu , sejak duk rumah je ni , kawan-kawan sekolah semua duk jauhh gilaa satu-satu , nak ajak keluar pun susah aih , soo aku macam online like always and make great friends with them , seriusly. bersyukur gila diorang adaa , like seriuslya takdelahh aku rasa macam sunyi sangat hidup aku . buat lawak , gelak entah pape , lawak hambar pun gelak , nyanyi pitching kelaut , gossip , buat action macam-macam , dress up together , *joget* banyak lagi kalau nak tulis , seriusly . Having them is soo much fun !
i cant imagine myself without them through this 5 months of holidays . bila lagi nak cuti lama macam ini weh?
nanty dah nak masuk uni dah masing-masing , nanti bila lagi nak lepak online , gelak kat skype . meh nk describe skitt beloved friends aku yang kenal baru beberapa bulan , akan tetapi macam dah kenal bertahun .
scha(nenek)- dia ni seorang yang misteri pada mulanya. haha , tapi bila lama-lama kenal . barulah tahu dia ni sometimes lagi gila dari kau , baikk , suka ajak ko gossip , suka gak bercerita pasal family dia yang beraneka , kehkeh . pastu selalu lah buat lekk dalam semua bende . selalu ada , dan layan je aku gelakk and selalu gelak bersama , everytime skype , aku ngan dia je yang ada suara nak cakap . bising lahh kau ni scha . kehkehkeh . aku panggil dia nenek , sebab kadang-kadang dia macam serius , pastu bila dia thu bende tu ta serius baru dia gelak , kalau buat lawak kadang-kadang dia macam suka lah tanya *eh aku tak paham weh* HAHAHAAHAHAHA , Tapi aku still sayang kau nenek , nak describe apa lagi kau ni ? haa , aku suke sangat time voice note ngan kau . HAHAHAHA , kau pun macam eksaited haaa , xD then aku harap kita sama-samalah move on dengan apa yang telah berlaku weh , pasal mamat tu , zzz , still dia kawan kita , biarlah dia buang kita pun , asal aku ada kau weh , huhu . stay strong babe . HAHAHAHA *kesahh lakk kauuu kann?* thank you skype aku sampai pagi , hehe
afinajmi-i dont know how dapat rapat dengan afi ni , seriusly . mula-mula sebab dia macam baik , suka tegur orang , aku jahat gila ingat afi ni perempuan , maafkan akuu afi ! xD kau baik gilaaaa , macam layan je semua orang , walaupun kau pelik sikit , tpi kau tak pelik pun , kau unik gtu , cehh , kehkehkeh , ko nyanyi youth memangg sedap gilaaaa mujur kau record aritu kan , aku macam selalu lah dengar , HAHAHAHA , kalau kau masuk akademi fantasia kau cakap tau , aku nak undi . hehe . anyway terima kasih weh kenalkan dengan kawan-kawan kau yang semuanyaa pun baik-baik dan sangat sporting gila . hehe
Its time to face the music im no longer youre muse
Soo , assalamualaikum . hehe , suddenly rasa macam nak update harini , ive been overthinking these few days and i dont know why . haha maybe sebab asyik mereput je dekat rumah aihh . Recently ive been reflecting on myself . i mean , fikir balik what have i done to myself . how i am with people around me , how i treat people , how people treat me and on the same side i was thinking how i treat myself as well . people always said that orang yang paling banyak ketawa , banyak gelakk , selalu happy sebenarnya yang paling sensitif . okay lah macam jiwang entah pape plakk , tapi like seriusly . dekat asrama dulu aku selalu menangis actually . cuma my friends je ta perasan . malam-malam pun after lights off aku aku nanges sorang-sorang sampai tertido . aku pun tak faham kenapa aku macam ni . whahaha . dari rumah lagi actually aku tak pernah menangis depan parents aku . kalau nak nangis aku duk diam-diam dalam bilik . done menangis aku keluar then bermain dengan adik-adik aku balik as if nothings ever happen . kalau aku terasa ke apa aku jenis pendam tau ,serius . mungkin dari kecik jadi anak sulung soo tak tunjuk sangat kita punya actual feelings when your parents might be busy layan adik-adik kau yang kecik . when you grow older , it kinda hurts when you cant tell people around you how you really feel . i cried easily bukan sebab aku ni manja ke apa , sebab aku dah lama pendam . last-last aku nangis . aku ingat lagi masa juniors dulu lagi lah banyak aku nanges lepas lights off . whahha . time senior pulak dalam shower berkali-kali . aku nangis sebab aku stress ,, aku nanges kalau kawan aku ada buat aku terasa tapi dia je kawan yang kau adaa . people say when you wake up , you have two choices it either to be happy or sad . thats why i choose to be happy , live my life . my friends once said ''Faa , ingat ta mu penah nasihat akuu , suh aku think positive on everythings yang berlaku dalam hidup ? masa tu aku tak dapat jadi pembimbing rakan sebaya , aku nanges tak henti , kau pesan ayat tu kat aku dan sekarang aku ketua pelajar dah faa (: '' and ''faa thank you sebab ada dengan akuu sampai lewat malam aku nangis , walaupun mu tak penah ada masa aku bahagiaa , tapi mu muncul pulak time aku nanges teruk aritu , kau teman aku sampai aku tido , mekasih faa '' and you guys wont know how much i hope you would be there and do the same thing to me . memang ramai gak cakap ''kau ni sporting ah faa , kau ni lawakk lahh , kau ni ntah pape jee , kau gilaaaa , kau friendly , wehh kau gelakkk kuat gilaaa , wehh bila nak stop gelak? '' hahahahha , sebab aku fikir bila aku gelak aku boleh lupa semua perasaan berkecamuk yang entah pape aku rasa . mama aku pun perasan jugak actually , aritu dia cuba tanya akuu ada apa-apa ke ? aku pi tukar topik lain . i just dont want to talk about it . like seriusly ive never talk about how i really feel to anyone , i admit it , i really love to make people laugh, who doesnt ? hahaha . i was thinking that i have to keep continuing to be positive eventhough you may face some rough things in your life . people come and go ~ people may change from time to time . dan aku jugak tahu bukan aku je melalui benda macam ni , ramai lagi melalui benda yang sama , they kept it for themselves . orang macam ni seriusly takkan pernah cerita to any soul . same goes to me , ive never told the problems that i have to anyone . kawan-kawan aku selalu tengok aku macam sengihh je sokmo , tapi memang pun , kalau aku badmood pun , kejap je , then aku start gelakk , kalo time aku macam orang gilaa tu . malam tu balik prep or anything aku nangis ahhh . its weird ! but its the way i am and i know im not alone getting through things like this ;3
how many nights would it take to count the stars , thats the time it would take to fix my heart
Annyeongggggg .haha betul tak tahu eja tu . So im officially 18 . yayyy . apa bende aku nak update ni . serius tak tahu nak update apaa , idea tu macam susah nak sampai . *fikir* haaaaaa , siyes tak tahu nak cakap apaaa . im not really in the mood of updating this thing . tapi kan i really , really think i should. This year punya birthday is not as fun as 5 years before . when you have friends who woud eventually do stuff to you when youre asleep . throws glitters to you when you were decorating your dorm . tuang habis air dalam botol kau *mula2 mintak nak minum* then siram aku pulak . tak ada dahh hadiah and kad yang cute-cute dari juniors . like seriusly . i really really miss those amazinggggly superb memories . aih aih , soo tahun ni birthdayy takde dah orang buat khianat amik kau punya pensel case and menyebabkan kau kene minta sedekah ngan orang lain nak pen , pensel , pemadam sume , pastu amik botol air aku yang aku memang talehh hidup dalam kelas tanpaa air .*macam ikan lakk* apa lagi ekk ? haaaa , yang dia amik semua bende dalam loker aku , abis deodorant , bedak takde . loker kau bersepahhh , baju sekolah yang ko dah siapkan nak pakai hari ko birthday takde sebab diorang sorokkan , ko nak pinjam ngan orang lain , orang lain sajaa jaaa buat takde , bagi alasan , saja nak buat sengsara T.T mujurlah berus gigi , sabun mandi diorang tak sorokkan , niayaaa weh , . pasal baju sekolah aku, aku sampai nak nanges , lagi 5 minit kene kosongkan asramaa aku takde baju nak pakai , WAHAHAHAHAA , aku berlari every dorm tanyaa sapaa nampak baju akuu , dahlah spek aku time tu diorang pergi tabur ngan bedakk , kalkulator aku macam kena celup tepung , aihh, sayang kawan-kawan saya . aku kelam kabut gila pagi tu , siyes . lepas round asrama cari baju , pegi balik dorm , tengok-tengok baju ada tersangkut kat luar , saja nak niayaa aku pagi-pagi . T.T aku tak sempat nak brekfes aritu , huhu . pastu diorang saja tanak wish , buat-buat ta tahu haritu birthday aku . dalam kelas kene pulauu , aihhh . special day tapi macam tak special lak . kesian aku , huhu . soo birthday tahun ni , still im soo thankful sebab my friends were there , and diorang punya wishes boleh buat aku tergolek pun adaaa , macam2 pesenn , termasuklah yang letak gambar muka aku macam pfftt je . hahahahaha , Thank you soo muchhh for wishing gais , and for the first wisher , si batman ala-ala nak jadi orang jepun , yang baru kenal berapa bulan , HAHAAHAHAH , dia punya wish buat aku macam moveddd skit . sikit jelahh , taley puji banyak-bnyak mamat ni , HAHAAHAHAHA , dia je yang sanggup layan cakap banyak akuuu , pastu skype ngan aku sampai pagi , kesian lak diaa , dengar je apa aku merepekkkk , pokpekpokpek , biannee batman ! - Arigatou haikkkk !!!! . Pastu tak lupa kepadaa buyongg yang kol akuu pastu terus menjeritt nyanyi lagu happy birthday , dahlah aku takde save no. kau , siyes aku terkejutt gilaaa vavii laaa jugak , mamat mne lakk nyanyii ta sodapp niehh . hahaha . 18 april birthday kau kan , aku nak blas nyanyian kau balik , ahhahaha and for the cute and loving wishes from my batchmate aku save satu-satu tauu , thank you soo much (: *kelip-2 mata*
